A Healer Unaware?

Yeah, you might wanna call me "crazy" after this OR your own "wheels" might start turnin' too...

I think I may have had a HUGE lightbulb moment this morning. "Wrote a song about it, like ta here it? Here it go, aaaa-haaaaaaa..."

So, come with me, step into my head...if you dare... *ha*

I was lying in bed, waking up, thinking...the way I do. I never jump right up. I thought again, what a bummer it is that I finally found a GREAT hairstylist (with short do's) and he is gone. Yeah...I called last week for an appointment only to hear, "Oh, he quit." WHAT?!! WHAT?!! HE CAN'T! NO! NOT ALLOWED! I've only had like five cuts with him! Just found him!

I calmly say, "Oh, no...really? When." "Yesterday," she says. "CRAP!" I think to myself. After we chat a bit more, I ask her "If it's okay can I ask why?" I actually thought HE owned the shop, but turns out she does. She went onto tell me that his son died in January. My guy tried to keep going but was really depressed she said, and just quit the day before. Okay, so of course I felt so bad for him, having no idea. Remembering the one or two times I sat in his chair since then having no idea...

This morning while I thought about it again wondering if I should let her cut my hair...I remembered all the places I've worked that "closed down, moved on, whatever" once they hired me. Yeah, it's been a joke for years in this house, how I "close em down." Not just places I've worked, but doctors. Soon as I find a good one, he/she "moves on/retires/whatever." Friends/healers/whoever and whatever...seems whenever I FINALLY find one that I love...not too long after, they...move on, away, are gone.

I always felt there was a lesson for me. I KNOW I have an "abandonment issue" this lifetime. Yeah...I have a big red A on my chest...and it is not because I "fool around." *ha* So, I have, the last few years accepted that this is the "norm" for me, UNTIL I can figure it out...get the message, heal the A wound that may be from many lifetimes.

NOW! What hit me like a FLOURESCENT and BLINKING lightbulb this morning was this!

I thought, "Omg...could it be? I mean we hear/ read all the time that we have no idea what we do at times to heal people, the planet, other dimensions etc right? We all want so badly to KNOW what our job is, what we are doing "behind the scenes" but have found it really hard to get that info.

The OMG moment, (are you still with me) is that all (or, okay some) of those people, places and things that made a HUGE change leaving me in a spin having to LOOK AGAIN for someone to fill that spot? "Behind the scenes" did "I" help them move on?

Like back to my hair guy...He was trying to hang since January. And actually as I type, I remember now that I only saw him once after is son died, cause I got my last cut 4 weeks ago. Suddenly, "after me" he can no longer "hang and pretend" and quits. He is now facing it all, taking time to heal, etc. You guys know me, I am for sure, on a conscious level an advocate of FEELING and HEALING. Who knew that even without consciously knowing someone might need that...I am somehow, "awakening" that in them AS IF we talked???

I lay there thinking of the doc I finally loved for my son (ear nose and throat). After his surgery at 5, next time we needed one, he had "moved on" to Kaiser. Looked him up just a few years ago for myself. Guess what? He is the CHIEF something or other of ENT's at Kaiser. (He was young then)

Finally found a couple of docs I LOVED throughout the years and I SWEAR! A couple of visits and they are gone...started their own practice, got out of the big city and closer to nature...whatever.

Companies I've worked for. FINALLY loved a job. Soon, they were closing down, moving out of state, WHAT THE FRICK EVER!

So do you see what I was thinking today? And believe me not saying, "OMG! I am one powerful biotch!" Oh God, no way. I am saying, "OMG! We read/hear over and over again how we are "raising the vibration" etc right? Back to my hair guy. As long as he stayed in the "I don't wanna feel, I must go on, I will be okay" place...he wasn't healing or in a "high vibration," right?

Okay, I think I blabbed enough, as it has not really processed yet. I just wanted to throw it out there so that you too can think about your possible "behind the scenes/totally unaware" job. I really think I am onto something. Again, could it be???? THAT is one reason as they say, "This path can be a lonely one." Because we "heal/help" so unknowingly, that when peeps/things move on, we just feel like, "Oh great...another on bites the dust."

Thanks for reading if you made it this far. Was just another one of my "...like to hear it? Here it go, Aaaaaaaa haaaaa" moments. :-)

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